sometime its much harder to accept the reality that what had happened wasnt your fault & you had no control over it. its always easier to blame yourself than to free yourself of that blame.
your body might have given us an opportunity to temporarily contain sukuna & exorcise him at a later point but you were never expected to control him. you wouldnt have been able to.
[ containing him and controlling him are two entirely separate things. ]
you were meant to contain him but it was never a responsibility for you to shoulder alone. i was supposed to be right there with you.
after all i was the one whod insisted on postponing the exorcism. [ technically, it was an execution but exorcism sounds nicer. ] i was the one whod promised to watch over you & prepare you for what was to come. so if youre lookin for someone to blame for all of this then blame me. i wasnt able to fulfill my duty as your sensei.
[ instead he got his ass trapped for three years a month, give or take. ]
youre itadori yuji it doesnt matter how many fingers youve eaten or who your family are at the end of the day youre you
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& i dont think thats true yuji you might not be able to save those who are battling with you but there are millions of lives out there that youre defending
as jujutsu sorcerers death is an inevitability for us you wont be able to save your comrades but you were never meant to fight for them you were meant to protect those who cant protect themselves
[ The words are a lot, and any other day Yuji might be able to shoulder them and take them on - he might be able to believe in Gojo. He's reeling, though, his own hands stained with blood, and thinking about the number of people he's failed to save...
iβm not quitting. iβm not giving up, even if both you and nanamin tell me iβm not good enough and i should iβm going to save him. i donβt care what i have to do to make sure megumi is ok i need him to live
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isnt it just sukunas fault?
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i was meant to control him, wasn't i? that was the whole point
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sometime its much harder to accept the reality that what had happened wasnt your fault & you had no control over it. its always easier to blame yourself than to free yourself of that blame.
your body might have given us an opportunity to temporarily contain sukuna & exorcise him at a later point but you were never expected to control him. you wouldnt have been able to.
[ containing him and controlling him are two entirely separate things. ]
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if i wasn't meant to control him, to stop him from hurting more people, then why was i even trying to in the first place, gojo-sensei??
why does it feel so pointless? because all that happens is more and more people get hurt because of me
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after all i was the one whod insisted on postponing the exorcism. [ technically, it was an execution but exorcism sounds nicer. ] i was the one whod promised to watch over you & prepare you for what was to come. so if youre lookin for someone to blame for all of this then blame me. i wasnt able to fulfill my duty as your sensei.
[ instead he got his ass trapped for
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its not your fault. i ate the finger. i ate so many, and then my brothers, and now i donβt even know what i am anymore
shoko-san said iβm more like a cursed object now but i donβt know
i donβt know what to do. i couldnβt save anyone
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it doesnt matter how many fingers youve eaten or who your family are
at the end of the day youre you
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& i dont think thats true yuji
you might not be able to save those who are battling with you
but there are millions of lives out there that youre defending
as jujutsu sorcerers death is an inevitability for us
you wont be able to save your comrades
but you were never meant to fight for them
you were meant to protect those who cant protect themselves
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Has he been cursed this whole time?
It takes him too long to reply. ]
ok sensei
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that being said if its too much for you to shoulder then walk away
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iβm going to save him. i donβt care what i have to do to make sure megumi is ok
i need him to live
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great
so what do you feel like youre lackin in to do that?
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i need to learn blood manipulation properly, and take advantage of the techniques sensei and senpai gave me
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but thats why its a team effort
you cant defeat sukuna with strength alone
being able to adapt strategize & react quickly is just as vital
you arent just going up against his strength & power
youre going up against his experience & wit too
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but i don't want to be the weakest link, either
i can rely on the others, but i can also make sure i'm the strongest i can be
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so lets start lessons back up
[ given LILITH's power restrictions on certain abilities, he is skeptical about how much room for growth anyone really has here.
so, it couldn't hurt to test his theories out through his students. ]
its gonna be on my schedule though
be prepared
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i'll be ready whenever you want, gojo-sensei
don't worry about that
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ill take your word for it yuji
[ get ready for sporadic wake up calls at ass o'clock
no time better for training sessions ]